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In memory of: Abbie "So hurt"

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I am very sad and hurt as I write this. I have lost my chow Abbie. Abbie had been with us her whole life and she was 11 years old. We noticed Abbie began picking at her food, not eating well and we took her to the vet. They did blood work and an xray which showed a splenic tumor. She had went from 50 pounds to 43 pounds. We remained optimistic when the vet recommended we see a specialist and have an ultra sound. But all that changed . I was with Abbie during the ultra sound and the vet said it was the size of a football. The size didn't concern him like the damage he seen in the liver. He told us if it was just a spot on the liver he has removed those before but that Abbie's entire liver was affected and he said it was cancer. He and another doctor didn't recommend surgery. In a matter of 4 days my Abbie wasn't eating but was drinking. She could hardly walk.
I dont understand how this happened so fast. I am completely devastated. I don't know if I did the right thing by letting them euthanize her. I was with her to the very end and watching her take her last breath will remain in my mind forever and I fell completely apart right there in the vets office, my husband too. I hope she will forgive me. I am constantly thinking of her, she was so special and so beautiful. I just hurt so deep.
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That is such a sad thing to hear. I pray that your husband and yourself will make it through the tough and heart-rending ordeal.
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Post by Princess »

I am SOOOO sorry for your loss!!!!!!!!!!!!

You did the right thing by letting her be young and healthy again at the Rainbow bridge.
Animals don't show sign of disease till it's very late (survival in the wild instinct, can't show weakness). You did the right thing, she wasn't eating or walking, that's not good life. You stopped her pain and she's thanking you for it.

She'll forever be in your heart and she's watching over you and one day you'll be reunited.
Again I'm so sorry :cry:
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Post by kingalls »

...I'm so sorry for your sudden loss - I know Abbie meant so much to you but know that she is pain free across the Bridge.

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Post by Victory »

I'm sorry for your loss. My Darkwind who crossed the bridge last July had liver and stomach cancer. He also went from 70lbs to 47lbs in about two months. The cancers are very fast, and unless you do an ultrasound or x-rays every six months I don't think they can be caught until the damage is so severe.

If your baby had stopped eating and walking you gave her the greatest gift you could by allowing her to leave this life gently.

I've done it three times now, and it's never easy. You always wonder if you gave up too fast, but when you think about it, you realize that the best thing you can do for a life of love and loyality is make their passing as painless as possible.
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Post by Judy Fox »

I am so sorry and understand how you feel. But remember, you loved her very much and the greatest act of love you showed her was being with her and seeing her on her way to The Happy Hunting Grounds. :)
She won't need to forgive you - she will know what you did and she will wait for you! :)
Just remember the good times and smile. :)
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Post by EuroSuzie »

I am so sorry to hear that you lost your beloved chow. I know your heart is breaking and the pain runs so deep you think you will never get over it. The pain does lessen but the feeling of loss never goes away.

We lost our Sasha on January 4. When I posted here everyone had so many nice things to say. A few people encouraged me to think about adopting another chow to help ease the pain; that the love in your heart is well spent on giving it to another chow that needs it. I was at a point that I thought I'd never want another dog, let alone a chow. To make a long story short, two weeks after we lost Sasha we adopted TWO lovely chows. We are soooo happy with our new girls and I feel that Sasha is happy for us.

Don't get me wrong, the pain I feel for Sasha is still right up there. I just had a good cry yesterday! But the love I feel for my new chowfurbabies eases that pain.

Allow yourself time to grieve -- big big hugs!!

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Post by Auddymay »

I am so sorry for your loss. You did do right by Abbie. She had a good life, and runs free at the Rainbow Bridge. She will be there to greet you when your time comes, too. 0Someday you will be ready to honor Abbie's memory with another Chow, but for now, let yourself grieve your sweet girl. Feel free to write something, or post photos in the memorial section, what ever gives you a measure of comfort. We are here for you, and would all like to know more about your Abbie when you are ready to share her stories.
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Post by chowfrnd88 »

I am so sorry for your loss. Like the others said, you did an amazing thing by letting her go. Think of her as she is now, healthy and running free at the Rainbow Bridge waiting for you.
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I am so sorry to hear about your chow. I wish I had known about this group at the time when I needed advice. It's so difficult to deal with the death of a boloved pet.

I lost my Luna girl July 22 of last year. She showed definite signs of aging. Walked extremely slow. She was blind due to glaucoma. I groomed her, gave her a bath on Thursday afternoon planning to take her to the vet on Monday. Friday morning I found her behind the furnace, I pulled/carried her outside to the backyard. Luna then hid in the bushes, a neighbour helped me out to get her untangled. By Friday midnight she moaned, I then called the visiting vet first thing Saturday morning. The vet showed up to save a chow, but she took one look at Luna and shook her head. I never knew that a dog can go downhill so quickly, so suddenly. I never had a chance to find out what her health problem was in the first place. She ate well, didn't lose any weight. She did have worms, fleas which I discovered Friday night. Not even that Thursday when I groomed her and bathed her - did I notice any infestation. I still have trouble dealing with her quick decline.

Sorry for ranting but it still bothers me to this day. Human patients when sick understand, but what do you say to your beloved chow?

I adopted another chow kid, Mikki, she's a godsend. It does help to have a new chowkid around.
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I am deeply saddened by the loss of your Abbie. It seems as if the Chow has such a responsibility to being our caretakers they don't ever want you to know how ill they are. I lost my Baby Jan.22 , she became ill overnight and was put to sleep the next day. My heart aches every day for her. She will be at the bridge taking care of your Abbie.Please know how much I feel your pain and saddness.
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I am heart sick for you, I to have been though this .In 1999 my Sherea 12 1/2 years old was showing signs of illness, one day she collasp as I was walking her, The vet put her to sleep that afternoon. He told me i did the right thing, when she died he felt a large tumor in her stomach,ther was nothing i could do. I did question if I should have waited longer to give her more time, and then I had to tell myself she was sick and not happy, I would be prolonging her life for myself not for her, YOU did the right thing, you will always miss your furkid, as do I to this day. My lily may was giving to me 6 months after Sherea`s death from my family for a birthday gift,I cried everyday and my family wanted to see me love a chow again. She is my bestfriend, you to will have a new friend when the time is right, until then I hope you remember all the fun times you had and how kind you where in the end to say goodbye. :(
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Post by crazy4chows »

I am so sorry for your loss. You shouldn't feel guilty at all. You loved her, and letting her go when she was in that amount of pain was the most selfless, loving thing you could do. My prayers are with you and your husband.
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Post by 3blackchows »

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.
PLEASE do not feel guilty. I think we all do when it comes down to it. I have 2 who are the Bridge & I felt guilty as well. I think it's a natural reaction. You both had many wonderful years togther & just knowing she's not in any pain should ease your heart a little. I put togther a memory book after each of mine passed. While doing it I cried, laughed and went down memory lane. Afterwards
my heart felt full of luv & I was lucky enough to have been given one of Gods' beautiful gifts. Hang in there, it will get better. Hugs & kisses.
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Post by sit_by_the_beach »

Abbiegirl wrote:I am very sad and hurt as I write this. I have lost my chow Abbie. Abbie had been with us her whole life and she was 11 years old. We noticed Abbie began picking at her food, not eating well and we took her to the vet. They did blood work and an xray which showed a splenic tumor. She had went from 50 pounds to 43 pounds. We remained optimistic when the vet recommended we see a specialist and have an ultra sound. But all that changed . I was with Abbie during the ultra sound and the vet said it was the size of a football. The size didn't concern him like the damage he seen in the liver. He told us if it was just a spot on the liver he has removed those before but that Abbie's entire liver was affected and he said it was cancer. He and another doctor didn't recommend surgery. In a matter of 4 days my Abbie wasn't eating but was drinking. She could hardly walk.
I dont understand how this happened so fast. I am completely devastated. I don't know if I did the right thing by letting them euthanize her. I was with her to the very end and watching her take her last breath will remain in my mind forever and I fell completely apart right there in the vets office, my husband too. I hope she will forgive me. I am constantly thinking of her, she was so special and so beautiful. I just hurt so deep.
Was Abbie your first dog? Luna was my first dog. I had no idea that a dog can get sick so quickly. I also had Luna euthanized. It's hard to see them suffer and then having to let go. When I look at Luna's last photos, I can see the aging, the tired looking eyes.
Don't blame yourself, you did all you could possibly do for Abbie.
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Post by janet »

i am so sorry for your loss. i am hysterical as i am typing this. it is the worst thing on this earth to have to go through. with me, i have 3 chowkids over the rainbow bridge, and there is not a day that goes by that i dont think of them. you always second guess yourself. you have to keep telling yourself that abbie is at peace and in no more pain.
i know no matter what anyone says,it will not take the hurt away, but just know that we are here for you.

my bubba, had a heart attack at my feet. i swore i would nevver be able to function again. i didnt work for a week. but with the kindness and compassion from family and friends, i was able to pull myself back. i wish i had this site at the time.

time,unfortunately, is something you can never get back.

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Post by Abbiegirl »

Thanks to all for your kind words and support. Sit by beach had ask if Abbie was my first chow and yes, Abbie was my first dog. A year ago I got a 4 month old Jack Russell. I was the Jack Russell's 3rd home. The first 2 homes didn't like how she was so hyper. I have her and she will be with me throughout her life. Shes a sweet little dog,and I care deeply for her, but Abbie was just so special. I had her for 11 years, since she was 9 weeks old.
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I am heart sick for you. I'm so sorry that you have lost your friend. Our thoughts are with you...
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I am in tears as I write this to you - Please accept my hearfelt and sincere condolances. I am so sorry for your sudden loss. I wish that I could ease your pain, but please know that we are all thinking of you during this difficult time. I would love to hear any memories you wuold like to share of your sweet Abbie.

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Post by annedan »

I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your "baby". My Ted is 12 1/2 years old, has been with me since he was 8 weeks. Ted is the love of my life. He's been in my life longer than any man! (even my husband :wink: ) We are lucky to experience only the love a chow can offer. Please find peace in knowing that Abbie is pain free and at the Rainbow Ridge doing all the things she loves. Ted and I will have a special prayer for you and your family tonight...Anne
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Post by threedogjeep »

So many of us am fully empathize with you at this time. Know that you are in the company of a league of us owned by our furkids. Most of us have walked one of our babies to the bridge. Sometimes I dream of green fields, stocked ponds, no fences, and fields of frolicking furs! God bless.
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Post by Dogdad »

I am so sorry, We lost our cocker otono last year after 14 years. One day I let out the dogs and he came home with them. It is ok to grieve and leave a space in you heart.
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Post by Chandler »

Hi again. I wanted to read about your Abbie after I received your email. Again, I am so sorry. I feel your pain. It know it was hard to watch Abbie take her last breath. I went through the same thing with Chandler. I bawled out loud. Reading your words brings back all the pain. I know we both doubted ourselves if we did the right thing. We loved them so much, didn't we? ...we just didn't want to lose them. Yes, it still hurts today.
Again, I'm sorry for your loss, but I'm glad you had Abbie in your life.
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Post by coleywoley »

I am so sorry for your loss. I think you did the right thing, you let her go without suffering anymore and she got to be with you when she passed over to the bridge. Please know we are all thinking of you.
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Post by Abbiegirl »

It has been a little over 8 months since I lost my sweet Abbie. We have her urn on the mantle of the fireplace, it has a picture of Abbie on the front. I miss her everyday. We always talk about her and the things she did. She knew she was the best in our eyes....so spoiled. She would act so tough and really she was, but so sweet to us. I loved her dearly, still do.
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